Stop to Smell The Roses .... Or In My Case Daipers

Dear Noah

When you do the same thing again and again on a regular basis, it often becomes automatic, routine.
The midnight and 4am diaper changes are one of those things. Half awake, but mostly asleep, I pick you up out of your co sleeper and start the routine. Change diaper, while you moan and wriggle still sleepy but now hungry, feed, burp, back to bed.

This time as I lay you down on the changing table and start to undo your onsie, I notice your quiet and not wriggling or moaning. I turn and look down at you to see you beaming back at me with the widest smile I have ever seen. I literally laugh out loud (quietly of course its 4am)  You stop me in my tracks, and slow everything down as we savor this moment.  Your smiling and talking to me and I'm melting in your gaze grinning from ear to ear. We spend the feeding time together awake enjoying each others company. I couldn't care less that its 4am, I am loving every moment with you.

You have the gift of slowing down time as it were. I am remembering to stop and put the less important things on hold so we can enjoy moments that seem to last forever. If only!

I wish I could tape all our moments together, so I never forget. So they are always as fresh as when they happened. 

I love you Noah

Always your loving mother X