Learning to Sleep

Dear Noah

You have been learning to sleep. Its strange that you would have to learn how to fall asleep, but you do. You have to learn that it is safe to fall asleep. You have to learn what tiredness is and not to fight it. You had to learn to fall asleep on your back and on your own.

You learn't it pretty fast. With in 24 hours you had gotten used to your co sleeper and where taking regular naps. I am so proud of you. It turns out that being with you as you fall asleep is now one of my favorite times with you.

Daddy and I took turns soothing you the first few times we  tired to put you to sleep on your own. It took over an hour, one of us laying by your side so that you knew you where safe.  Eventually you fell asleep and very quicky you decided this was your sleeping place and sometimes you wanted to be there.

 I still lay by your side when you fall asleep. You are your sweetest then, looking, smiling and talking to me. Your eyes full of trust and love.  Then you get fussy, your still learning to distinguish between your emotions which leads you to get a little mad before you finally fall asleep. 

I cant resist it but sometimes I pick you back up and if your especially fussy let you fall asleep next to me on the bed. I love that just being close to me calms you down and I feel the stress leave your tired little body. Its something I need as you no longer nurse, I miss that bonding time.

I love more each day Noah. You are such a precious gift and a sweet sweet boy. Always keep that sweetness that melts my heart.

Your loving Mother always

Your first time sleeping on your back

                                                Laying next to you to sooth you as you sleep