My Favourte Place

Dear Noah

While it lasts my favorite place at the moment is having you  fall sleep on me.  Ill be honest its my second favorite place, my first is in your fathers arms.  Before you, I used to spend each day there. At the end of the day some people discuss their day over coffee, while doing chores, your father and I would lay in each others arms and talk, reconnect and go over our day apart from each other.  That part of our day is on hold just now, we joke that you have radar and anytime we go to spend time together you either wake up or get really fussy.  But thats ok, you are only this small for a very short time and you bring us such joy.  We now spend that time playing and talking to you.

I love holding you and letting you fall asleep on me. I feel your warmth, smell that exquisite baby smell, A mix of talc and milk.  Your father says we smell of cheese! and laughs.  Its our smell, the smell of nursing, of sleep, of us. 

It feels comforting to hold you. There you are safe, I can protect you and I hold on to you jealously knowing soon you will running around, wanting to explore the world.

For now this is our time, your place is in my arms, my new favorite place.

Your Loving Mother Always
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