2 Months old

Dear Noah

You are  two months old, and you are growing fast.  Your personality is shining through.  You had your two month check up at the Doctors today. You are in the 28% for weight and 6% for height but they think your gonna continue growing when most have averaged out because you are catching up. 

You had 3 shots today and you only cried for a minute when she actually injected you, then you calmed right down and became your sunny smiley self again. You are so brave.

We are working on getting you to sleep on your back. You have never been very comfortable that way, but I think that's because we hold you alot as you are so adorable.  But now we have to train you to sleep in a safe way, that will also give you and I a better night sleep.  Daddy is sitting by your side as you sleep in the co-sleeper. You keep waking up crying and he is there to comfort you and give you a binky to soothe you. He loves you very much and it is hard for him to see you adjust to a new way of sleeping, but he knows its best for you. You are safe, fed and you know we are here so its just a matter of us being strong for you. We are tag teaming, I was just in with you too.  Its been a good half hour at least, and your still in and out of sleep! I sang to you and stoked your head as you sucked on your binky, but every time it falls out of your mouth you wake up! Dad went to check on you and you are finally asleep. Well done you. Change is hard for babies.

You now weigh 12lbs, double your birth weight and are 22" long Yey!!

Today you are official we went and got your birth certificate. We can now get your passport.


Known for:
Sucking on his hands
being very talkative at 6am
starting to giggle
loves sitting up and watching the world

We love watching you grow and seeing your little personality grow

Your loving mother always

                                                             Noah at the Doctors

                  

                                                      Noah getting his birth certificate

                                                           Noah Two Months old

                                         Noah looking more and more like his Dad every day

A perfect moment

Dear Noah
My life is full of perfect moments because of you.
It's 3am your nestled in my arms dark eyes peering up at me as you nurse. Your small hand tightly grasping my finger. The world is dark and a hush lies over our home. I hear the rhythmic sound of you nursing, the tick of the clock, and the occasional truck on the freeway.
Your eyelids heavy with sleep slowly rise and fall as you drift off into slumber. As dreams take over, you smile, and frown. All safe in
my arms. A perfect moment.
Your loving mother always
X




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My Favourte Place

Dear Noah

While it lasts my favorite place at the moment is having you  fall sleep on me.  Ill be honest its my second favorite place, my first is in your fathers arms.  Before you, I used to spend each day there. At the end of the day some people discuss their day over coffee, while doing chores, your father and I would lay in each others arms and talk, reconnect and go over our day apart from each other.  That part of our day is on hold just now, we joke that you have radar and anytime we go to spend time together you either wake up or get really fussy.  But thats ok, you are only this small for a very short time and you bring us such joy.  We now spend that time playing and talking to you.

I love holding you and letting you fall asleep on me. I feel your warmth, smell that exquisite baby smell, A mix of talc and milk.  Your father says we smell of cheese! and laughs.  Its our smell, the smell of nursing, of sleep, of us. 

It feels comforting to hold you. There you are safe, I can protect you and I hold on to you jealously knowing soon you will running around, wanting to explore the world.

For now this is our time, your place is in my arms, my new favorite place.

Your Loving Mother Always
X

Cabin Trip

Dear Noah

One of the greatest comforts in life is being apart of a loving family.  Feeling loved and secure. Noah you are loved in buckets loads. 
You recently had your first trip to the cabin.   Everyone was genuinely excited to see you. You where passed from one set of adoring arms to another and you handled it in your stride.  You are loved so much my child, not just by your father and I, but my your aunts, uncles, grandparents, great grandparents and cousins.  Never take that for granted. Reconnect, make time and wallow in the warmth of a loving family.  You have one and that is special thing.

Your loving mother always

A Tough Decision

Dear Noah

You have only been with us for a little under two months and yet you have taught me much. Today you taught me to trust my instincts as a mother, and as long a your happy and healthy I have made the  right decision.  A message I want to send out to other mothers.

When you came into this world little one you had trouble latching.   At first we thought you had a tight fenulum but the Dr decided you didn't so we avoided having to put you through that procedure.  You where just small, and some babies find it hard to latch.  You lost weight the first week and were even smaller.  I had an abundance of help from wonderful nurses, and lactation consultants. We tried for two months together you and I. I saw your strength and perseverance my son as you had to work twice as hard to get the same amount as milk as other babies. We nursed for hours,  often in tears of frustration on your part and my heart breaking because all I wanted to do was feed you, and the best way I knew how was to nurse.

It would break my heart to hear other babies gulping down their mothers milk and then look down at your furrowed little brow as you nursed away.  Your not being able to latch meant that you found it hard to transfer milk and my milk just didn't seem to come in the way it should because of the lack of stimulation from you.

Because I was nursing almost every hour some days we decided to supplement with organic formula so I could sleep and your father could feed you. It broke my heart to give you formula. I know breast is best and blamed myself for not being able to nurse you the way other mothers could feed their babies.

It took me a while to realize this wasn't about me. I needed to work through my guilt, my disappointment and shame.  When we feed you formula you are fuller, happier and a more content baby. You sleep better, I am able to put you down, you talk and are alert.  No more frustrated baby.  That is what matters.

Others may frown when they see me feeding you with a bottle but that's ok.  I made the decision today that I am ok with bottle feeding you. I prayed about it and I feel at peace with my decision because my instincts tell me you are ok with it and you need it. I will nurse you as long as I have a milk supply as I love nursing you.
I love you Noah and will always do whats best for you.

Your loving mother always
X

You Make Me Smile

Dear Noah

You melted my heart today.  You smiled at me.  You looked at me as I was talking to you and you smiled in response.  It was the most amazing feeling.  My eyes filled with tears of love and wonderment, as you melted my heart.

You are laughing and talking at us now too. You bring out the child in us as we squeal with delight every time you coo, calling each other from other ends of the house "quick come he's talking" we rush to your side less we miss your bright eyed chatter.

You are literally a light in our lives. Dad cant wait to come home to you and I hate being apart from you.

Here are some of the smiles we have captured.

Never stop Smiling and laughing, not only will it make you happier you brighten up the lives of those around you.

Your loving mother always X

1 Month Old

Dear Noah

You are 1 Month Old you have grown so much already, I can see your personality developing.

You are known for :
• Being a little gassy
• Being very alert
• Smiling at Mummy and Daddy
• Not liking your diaper changed
• Having a bit of a temper

Loves :
• Sleeping on Mummy
• Being Held
• Bath time
• Falling asleep while nursing
• Being Swaddled at night
• Riding in the car




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