Dear Noah
What a year this has been! You are so big, not a baby anymore. You still need your mama tho. You are still very clingy to me which is nice. I miss co sleeping with you, but you dont snuggle into me the way you used to. Now you turn away and fall asleep. Each time I see your independance peeking through it is a bittersweet feeling for me. I am proud of the young person you are becoming and know you need to grow, but I feel a sadness, a longing for the little one that needed me for everything.
You now sleep in your own bed, most nights willingly. You would rather sleep with us, as some nights start with tears and crys of mama as you point to our room.. But you take your daddys hand and he leads you into your room for your, pre bed time routine. A story, bonding and prayer with daddy. I love seeing you both hand in hand walking toward your room. It such a warm feeling seeing the two of you together.
Daddy and I enjoying the space in our own bed. You have the knack of being able to turn 360" all through the night. Your preferred sleeping position is feet in one of our backs or necks laying horizontal across the bed!!! followed by small crys of "binky" or bowbow randomly throughout the night!
You turn 2 in two days!
My favourte things about you at this age are your, humor and your loving sweet nature. your eyes light up when you see me and you still run into my arms with gleeful crys of mama mama! you get upset if i leave. You and i play alot, we wrestle and you get tickles galore. You are fun to play with.
I still love bathing with you and its a fun place for us to play. Your vocabulary is really good and its such a joy to hear you talk and add words daily.
You do however break me about once a month! you are very strong willed! you test me on a daily basis. If i tell you not to touch, you will look at me and touch something else close by to see my reaction. It must be your age but you do the stupidest things, its like you are on a death pact. I find you sticking things into plug sockets on a daily basis!! you only listen to me when I let out a frightening scream.. NOAH! NO!.... You have been told 1000 times do not go into the cuboards under the sink where the bleach etc is and every day i find you in there!!! we did have a child lock on it but you broke it with your super baby strength and daddy isnt the best at fixing stuff.
You tear up the house. I can hear you doing it now. touching things that you are not allowed to! Ive lost some pretty important things because you climb on furniture and break things you are not allowed to have. Some belonging to my dad. That makes me sad.
I dont do well at spanking you. So you go on time out and you hate that. Im pleased because as i said i hate spanking you. Dad says you need it!! it something we will always disagree on.
I love your cuddles and kisses. you are all boy, you love trucks.. Especially your daddys truck. You run out to meet him most evenings and say "truck" and he lifts you up into the cab of the truck and you pretend to drive it.. its so adorable.
Right now im going to probably spank you ... ok i didnt spank you. You had taken a small bottle of conditioner into the closet and you and timmy were using it like cream. I just took it from you and said NO! this happens about 100x a day!! No Noah are the words i use most. Apart from I love you. That i say the most to you.. I love you more every day..
I will write more often my darling
I love you always forever
mummy
